Settle Down

A bit restless they eyed us with caution.  Who are you and why are you close?  They needed to learn we were there to care for them.

On this cool overcast May morning, our family rode through some new yearlings.  Trying to figure out their new surroundings, they were somewhat  unsettled.  Our purpose was to simply be present and settle them down.  My husband whispered instructions to us.

“Be quiet.  Don’t ride at them, gently ride around them.”

Maybe after a few times of riding through them, they might be more settled in our presence.


For several weeks, the Lord has been whispering to my heart, settle down.  I hear but I have not settled.  Fear has gripped my heart and I have been striving to be a perfect mom, spouse, and church member.  With enough research, I can figure out how to fix things around me and have an effective ministry.  Yikes, writing that out sounds worse than I thought.  Yes, I have been in fix it mode and it has left me tired and unsettled.

My head knows the Lord cares for my family and I and I need not worry about anything, oh but how easily I forget.  I have been eyeing the Lord with caution and living unsettled.

But, this morning He whispered, “Settle down.”

There is no need to be cautious when it comes to trusting the Lord God Almighty.

You are secure.  The name of the Lord is a strong fortress; the godly run to him and are safe. Proverbs 18:10

You can stop striving.  And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.  Romans 8:28  I feel like I write and say this scripture often but when am I really going to get it?  We will not be settled until we truly believe this truth.

In her book Seamless, Angie Smith says,

“We aren’t God.  That means we can’t “put ourselves in His place,”  and any attempts to apply our own standards and expectations on Him are basically futile.  He is entirely separate from us, and fully sovereign-meaning He can do what He wants when He wants.  He is also fully love so what He does is ultimately loving whether we can presently understand or not.”  (pg 24)

Thank goodness all of our nutty striving, will not change God’s good plan!

You can settle in the Lord.  Settle, meaning to quiet, calm or to bring to rest.

Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you.  Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light.”

Lord, help us remember, we find true rest in the shadow of the Almighty.  Help us follow You, knowing You are working all things together for good for those that love You.  May we rest in our loving Father!


Teach Me to Take One Day at a Time

I have been singing and humming this song for two days now.  One day at a time sweet Jesus…

Has the Lord ever challenged you to rethink something that you have lived your whole life?  You have bee-bopped along your entire 37 years and never even thought twice about the change He keeps stirring in your heart?  As much as you try to make it go away, it won’t go away.  I am learning the Lord is relentless pursuing his beloved.  He won’t give up on us.  When change is for our good, He will change us.  He loves us that much.

A lot of times when we begin to hear that still stern voice, we ignore it and might even say silly things like, “Oh Lord, that’s not possible.”  Can you believe we actually say things like that?  The Bible is clear when talking about the power of our risen Savior.  As my pastor preached with passion Sunday, the power of Christ is with us to accomplish the purposes of God.  All things are possible through Christ who strengthens us.

He brings you to your knees with a circumstance in which all you can do is surrender.  This is when we look to Heaven and believe everything He has taught us and stand firm in our faith.  We can count it all joy because He is using, even this, for good.  We will know Him more through our challenges, suffering, and the changing of our hearts.

One day we wake up and repent for being slow to obey and we decide to walk in obedience with Jesus because He is the only way, truth, and life.  It’s hard but it’s worth it.

We surrender,


resolve to obey even when it’s not easy,

believe we can change,

and trust in Him who is trustworthy!

Whatever it is He is nudging you to rethink or change, remember ALL things are possible through the power of our risen Savior.

This is my prayer today:

I’m only human I’m just a woman
Help me to believe in what I could be and all that I am
Show me the stairway that I have to climb
Lord for my sake teach me to take one day at a time
One day at a time sweet Jesus that’s all I’m asking from you
Give me the strength to do everyday what I have to do
Yesterday’s gone sweet Jesus and tomorrow may never be mine
So for my sake teach me to take one day at a time

One Day at a Time Sweet Jesus by Patsy Cline


I Will Give Him Back

I hover.  I control.  I hold on.  I worry.  When I know God’s Word says, rest, give up, let go, do not be anxious about tomorrow.  Why do I still wrestle with this?  I know God is sovereign. Yet, I still wake up at 2:30 am fretting.  This particular morning it happens to be about my children.

In the early hours of the morning, the Lord brought to my mind Hannah.  So this morning, I left Isaiah for a bit and flipped back to 1 Samuel 1 & 2.

She ached for a child.  She wept and prayed before the Lord.  Hannah was so distressed (worrisome) that the priest, Eli, thought she was drunk.  Hannah, just like us worried but she prayed earnestly.  “O Lord of hosts, if you will indeed look on the affliction of your servant and remember me and not forget your servant, but will give to your servant a son, then I will give him to the Lord all the days of his life.”  1 Samuel 1:11

Then she worshiped the Lord.

God heard.  God answered.  Samuel, one of Israel’s greatest prophets was born.  A little later, Hannah shows much trust and obedience.  She returns to the Tabernacle and says to Eli, “Sir, do you remember me?  I am the very woman who stood here several years ago praying to the Lord.  I asked the Lord to give me this boy, and he has granted my request.  Now I am giving him to the Lord, and he will belong to the Lord his whole life.”  1 Samuel 1:26-28

Although I am a little sleepy eyed this morning, I am grateful that the Holy Spirit awoke my mind and heart to Truth this morning.  Thank you for Hannah’s story and thank you for helping me remember my own redemptive story.

God has answered my earnest prayer for children just as He did Hannah.  My husband and I have dedicated both of them to the Lord.  I can confidently give them to the Lord all the days of their life.  He will care for them.  Even when life doesn’t play out for them as I envisioned, may I be quick to remember Your plans are so much greater than anything I could dream up.  Truth is hung all throughout our home to help us remember God’s goodness.  Maybe while picking up dirty clothes in their rooms, I should stop, read and remember God’s promises.


Gracious Father, may we remember and rest in your goodness.  When we begin to fret over our children, help us be confident in your sovereignty and know your plans are always better. Show us how to give our children fully and freely back to You, just as Hannah did.

When you don’t feel like going to church…

I arrived in the large dome to thousands of small voices singing…

I got this feeling inside my bones,

It goes electric wavy when I turn it on,

And if you want it inside your soul,

Just open up your heart…

You have to listen to get the full effect, here’s a clip:

As I walked down the concrete steps my body began to dance, a smile lifted on my face and I felt the happy in this place.  These kids were overjoyed to be at Chesapeake Arena watching basketball and so was I.

And to think I wasn’t going to come…

The night before, I had told my son, “I just don’t feel like going on this field trip.”  He begged me and I could sense it was important to him so I walked out of his room and prayed, “Lord, should I go?”

I instantly turned around walked in his dark room and whispered in his ear, “I will go if they have a ticket for me.”  He grinned while turning his face into his pillow so maybe I wouldn’t see, he still wants his mom to go, smile.  🙂

I have said similar words when it comes to going to church.  I just don’t feel like going.  There could be numerous reasons why we don’t feel like going.

I don’t feel good.

I am tired.

I have to see you know who there.

Ms. On Fire For Jesus will ask me to small group again.

I will cry and I don’t want to cry today.

I don’t have my life together enough to go.

I don’t want a hug, how are you.

I will feel that tug to change and I don’t know how.

I have to catch up around the house.

My husband and my family won’t go, who will I sit with?

And the list can go on and on…

But, never fail each time I arrive at church to worship the Lord, I get this feeling inside my bones.  As we begin to sing about the forever promises of God, all those reasons why I didn’t feel like coming fall away and are replaced with feelings of love, mercy, and compassion.  My heart begins to dance, a smile lifts on my face and I feel the happy in God’s church.  The Holy Spirit is present.  Sometimes my body is still and a tear trickles down my cheek but there is much goodness in that too.  Then my favorite time comes, the very words of Life are read and proclaimed.  God’s words are the bread of life.

I am learning every single time the Lord will meet you with goodness when you come to worship.  When church becomes less about us and more about Him, you can’t stop the feeling.  You feel like going to church.  You begin to desire to know Jesus more and worship Him.

Just as I told my son when the game was over, I leave church saying, “I am so glad I came.”

Lord, help us push past our feelings and go to church.  You are worth it!

Treasures in the Barn

It’s been a memorable weekend. Loved ones came to support our son in his first Hughes county stock show and spend precious time with us. Grandma and Grandad lost many games of Uno but Grandma did come away the big $16 winner of Right, Left, Center.  Thank you Lord for dear family that loves us big!

As we wrap up this first year of stock showing I am reflecting on the good. What a blessing it is to say most if not all was good.

Our nine year old really did learn the serious commitment it takes to be the sole caretaker of an animal.  Yes, Dad did feed occasionally but Lathan did the majority of feeding and watering and to my surprise, the grumblings were minimal.  (side note: mommas, dads, 4H leaders, and ag teachers give yourself a pat on the back for guiding your kiddos in this process)

We all learned there is much more to showing a lamb than just leading her in the show ring. 😉 I watched our son get better and better each time he showed.  I saw him enjoy an extracurricular activity and work hard at improving.

We met new families that we enjoyed beginning to get to know.  Our youngest loves running around the show barn with these friends.  We had no trouble getting her to sleep each night this weekend. 🙂

But, I think my favorite treasure that came from stock showing this year was the time spent with my family outside and in the barn.  This is a place my husband has always been but for me it is becoming a new place to spend time watching my family bond and my children grow.  It’s good for all of us to put our phones down and be together.


I close with this today.

“The book of Proverbs makes it clear that diligence-being willing to work hard and do one’s best at any job given to him or her-is a vital part of wise living.  We work hard, not to become rich, famous, or admired (although those may be by-products), but to serve God with our very best during our lives.” (Life Application Study Bible NLT)

I think stock showing has been one way of teaching our son the fruits of his labor.  It’s been a good year and we are looking forward to showing more.

Oh Father God, help us work hard and serve You with our very best!



God Knows!

The first thing I did as my mind awoke this morning was pray. This does not always happen but I fell asleep worrying and was a little restless all night.  I probably should have prayed last night.  Philippians 4:6 says something like, instead of worrying pray.  Good advice.

I prayed, God, I don’t know how to help my child…

Our children will face hard things and we will not know how to help them.  I had no idea this would be part of the journey of parenting.  Aren’t good moms suppose to have all the answers and quick fixes?  When friends, family, doctors and even pastors don’t have answers, where does that leave us?
So, we cry out saying, God I don’t know. You know! Help my kid and help me know my part.

In the meantime, even when we don’t know how to help or what the right answer is, what do we do?

~We hang on to the only One who has proven faithful from the beginning. We continue to read about God’s everlasting love and faithfulness. We remember how He has been faithful to us in the past. He is good and He loves us and our children.

~We keep praying! Even if it’s a simple, I DON’T KNOW GOD! Help us! Trust that He hears. Trust that He is for us.

~We keep seeking Jesus. He is the way, the truth and life.  He knows, even when we don’t know.

This is all I know today… Trust in our great God or the alternative is worry and fear. I don’t know about you but worry and fear have proven not to work. I have tried both but today I choose to trust our great God!

I trust You are good, God!

I trust that You hear us!

I trust that you love me!

I trust that You love my kiddos!

I trust that You know all things and You are working them out for good!

So hang on parents that don’t have the answers! None of us do!  I share your burden of not wanting your child to suffer and not being able to fix it.  Keep seeking our ever faithful Savior and keep praying for your children.   He hears you! He knows!  He’s working things out for good!

“And we know [with great confidence] that God [who is deeply concerned about us] causes all things to work together [as a plan] for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to His plan and purpose.”
‭‭ROMANS‬ ‭8:28‬ ‭AMP‬‬

No kidding, after writing this I went to get dressed and this is the shirt I put on.  I looked in the mirror and read:


Praying we rest in our all knowing God this weekend.

I Desire to Live a Fearless Life

With my heart pounding and reluctance in my fingertips, I turned back to 2 Kings 5:1-14.  I read the story of God healing a prideful foreigner.  The reluctance was because I knew God wanted to change my heart.  There are certain things I just want to ignore and tuck away in hidden places.  Nothing is hidden from the Lord and the more I seek Him, the more He drags out those things I tuck away.  There was a yucky place in my heart that did not want to know about this foreigner and I certainly did not want to write about Him.  Lord, please forgive me.

I just wanted to study the life of our Savior this morning.  I picked up where I left off and began reading in Luke 4:14.  While reading about Jesus being rejected in Nazareth the Lord abruptly stopped me at verses 25-27 and rerouted my study.

“And there were many lepers in Israel in the time of the prophet Elisha, but the only one healed was Naaman, a Syrian.””
‭‭Luke‬ ‭4:27‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Needless to say, I spent the rest of the morning reading about a Syrian commander, a forgeigner,  who did not know the one true God.  His story was many years before Jesus spoke the words of Luke 4:27 but Jesus wanted us to recall this story.

I encourage you to read 2 Kings 5:1-14.

Why would God heal a prideful foreigner who did not believe in Him?  There are probably many reasons why God healed him.  But, I spent most of the morning dwelling on this one. Through a young slave girl who knew God (there is much to learn from this fearless one), Naaman, all his company and even Israel (God’s people) would know there is one true God.  God healed Naaman so all around him might know Him!

Here’s Naaman words,

“Then he returned to the man of God, he and all his company, and he came and stood before him. And he said, “Behold, I know that there is no God in all the earth but in Israel; so accept now a present from your servant.””
‭‭2 Kings‬ ‭5:15‬ ‭ESV‬‬

God wants all to know Him.  He has a giant heart for all of us, even foreigners.

This issue of opening our hearts to foreigners scares me.  Don’t throw stones, I am just trying to be honest.  I wrestle with this.  I want to ignore it and tuck it away.  But, I take comfort in knowing that this does not scare Jesus.  There are many accounts of Jesus opening his arms to foreigners.  I desire to live a fearless life trusting completely in our Lord God Almighty.  This is my prayer. This is all I know how to do today.

I don’t know the answers to our immigration problems today.  I don’t even know where I stand on all that.  The Lord has appointed President Trump and other leaders to do their best for all people.

What I know I can do is,

seek the Lord’s guidance through His Word,

pray for missionaries and the people they are trying to reach, and the leaders of our country,

and give to support those loving foreigners in Jesus’ name.

“Whatever we do we must not treat the Great Commission like it’s the great suggestion.”  ~Charles R. Swindoll