Open my eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of your law. Psalms 119:18

Never, Never buy into a word I write (unless it is quoted scripture of course). I am just a momma struggling through this journey just like you. Yes, it is reassuring and encouraging when you type Amen. But, my whole heart behind discoveringtruthblog is that, if even just one cracks open the words of our Lord and Savior and discovers life, all the crazy emotions that surround writing will be worth it.

I am beginning a study of Hebrews that has opened my eyes to how little I know of our Holy God. Oh, but the little is good and it leaves me wanting more and more. I also am realizing, He is knowable. He has given us his Word and the Holy Spirit to teach our willing hearts. Each time I let his holy Word saturate my heart, I discover wondrous things.

I often dream with God. I also sometimes try to act on these dreams before I have spent time praying about them and hearing a “yes” from God. This usually leads to frustration. (side note: Big thank you to those of you in ministry with me for your patience when I throw crazy ideas at you before hearing a “yes” from the Lord) I am learning…

All this to say, for the last year I have on and off dreamed about seminary classes. Rationalizing in my mind, ok Lord, if you want me to teach and write, I need some education…  But the Lord has not given me a “yes” about this.

He knows that I want to love Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength. In His goodness, He brought me to a study last week and said, here’s the Bible and you have the Holy Spirit I will educate you.

Just me, the Bible and the Holy Spirit ummmmm….

I have been challenged not to use my study bible or any commentaries  (other people’s thoughts about God’s Word). This has already proven to be a stretch for me. I like my study bible. Study bibles and commentaries are great tools and I will use them again but for now God wants to show me wonderous things himself.

It just so happens my sister in law gave me a new ESV bible with no study notes. Thank you sweet sister! It was the perfect gift.

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So I write to you today encouraged that we can do this, we can study and know God through His Word. We can do this right here on the ranch in rural Oklahoma, at our kitchen table, waiting at dance class, in the pick up line at school, or on our lunch break! It may not be easy but it is God’s will for us to know Him through His Word. He will show us wonderous, life giving things!

Heavenly Father, open our eyes, that we may behold wondrous things out of your law. Psalms 119:18

*This study I am starting is Better by Jen Wilkin. You can find it online. 🙂

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One Way to get Clean

I have been emptying the dirty soaking water out of this pan each time I go to the sink. I refill it with hot soapy water again and again, then push it aside. The burnt carrots are not soaking off. I know some of you, not all of you, do this too.  My mother doesn’t do this, why do I?

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I think there is something in my heart similar. I have this black crisp in my life, maybe sin, maybe becoming idol thing in my life that I continue to put a little soapy water on and push aside. Okay, let’s be honest if I am saying “maybe” it is sin and it is an idol. It has not gone away. How could this be? I love Jesus and I delight in His Word?

I can no longer soak this sin in the suds of well, I go to church or this faithful servant of Yours seems to do it, so it must be okay. It’s time for me to come to our Savior and ask Him to wash me clean.  Just as my burnt carrots are not coming off unless I scrub them with a SOS pad, this stain will remain on my heart and effect my fellowship with the One I love the most until I ask Him to cleanse me. I can not keep soaking this stain in well intended, lukewarm soapy water. It won’t come off. I need the Living Water.

As we journey through this messy broken world, our hearts will become stained. As much as I wish we were, we are not without sin. But with a tear in my eye and a smile on my face I write to encourage you, we have a Savior that cleanses us from all our unrighteousness. ❤️  “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John‬ ‭1:9‬ ‭ESV‬‬  It will always be amazing to me that each time we come to Jesus sorry for our sin and ask for forgiveness, He lovingly does.

Jesus, Lord, the only One that can take away our sin, we need You. Please cleanse us where we need cleansing. Thank you for cleansing our hearts when we come to You.