I didn’t even know the devil had slipped in and slowly began dampening my fire, my passion to seek the Lord and pray. How could this happen? I love the Lord. I am learning it does happen and if it has not happened it more than likely will happen. I could blame this on lots of things, busyness, laziness, or my dear friends and pastors moving but the truth is Satan would love nothing more than to squash my passion. Life is busy, sometimes awfully hard and we get tired but Lord help us recognize our enemy’s strategies and pray.
In the last couple of month, the Lord has been pressing upon my heart to pray. I reached out to a trusted sister in Christ and asked her if she knew of any good books on prayer. She sent me an awesome message on prayer (I’ll post the link below, it’s long but well worth your time) and recommended the book Fervent by Priscilla Shirer.
I am on page 39 of this book and the Lord has revealed to me that a very real enemy has been strategizing and schemeing to steal my passion. My passion is my desire, my “want to”. My “want to” to read His Word, pray and keep fighting the good fight. People around me might not have recognized it and even I myself wasn’t fully aware but I believe that was part of the enemy’s plan. Slowly. Sneaky. Tricky. But our God is greater than Satan’s measly schemes.
This is my prayer as I go into 2019.
God, thank you for always being faithful. You are so good to me. Thank you for loving me always and saving me from sin and death. You have given me life, abundant life. Thank you for sisters in Christ that point me in the right direction. Thank you for opening my eyes to the enemy’s plan to steal and destroy my passion.
Lord, please forgive me of my sin. Forgive me for spending more time on my phone than seeking You. Forgive me for focusing on things that don’t matter around our house, like dirty windows. Forgive me for being “me” focused and taking my eyes off of You.
Please help me regain my passion. Only you can do this Lord. I can’t will it back or work hard enough to earn it back. You seeded a passion in my heart for me to love and serve you many years ago and only you can loosen the hard soil around my heart today. Please create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Give me a desire to seek you and pray. Help me choose you over other worthless things. Help me recover and regain my passion, my purpose, my want to, my desire. You gave me a heart to know you. I am yours and you are my God. I return to you with my whole heart. I want to love you with all of my heart, with all of my soul, with all of my mind and with all of my strength.
You have said, ” I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will remove your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.” Ezek. 36:26
I believe this God. I expect this. Great is Your faithfulness!
Link to message I referred to: